Am I complaining ?

You are the one that i wanted, the one that made me believe in "always", the one that i loved...
I still wonder right now, how did i bring myself to all those troubles ?
All this pain that i created by myself... Something that could be avoided... If only i hadn't fell for you, if only...Time goes on, Things Change, but memories stay. Unfortunately, the memory that i have of you will never leave me. It'll follow me wherever i go. I loved you so much, oh my god.. I just can't believe it. How am i so naive ? You were everything.. You told me I was your everything... But was I ? You kept told me how much you loved me.. You were all i wanted, all i needed, you were everything. Now, i don't want you to be my everything anymore. Look at how you treat me. Look at what you've done to me and i wonder how i stayed that long running after you, loving you and giving all of myself. You don't deserve me, you don't deserve anything from me.. What am i doing right now ? Please... I can't take it no more. I give up on you. It's now your turn to run after me, if you don't, just leave me.

What do you think of my smile ? I'm not smiling for you...