dear diary...

I realized that the moment you decide to end all of this, is the moment that you win everything. Your pride and your dependence... I'm sitting right now on my bed, listening to the rain... I hear every little drop that reach the ground, is that an impression ? I don't feel like sleeping at all... It's already 1:23. I should actually sleep... But, i'm still thinking. As always. I want to cry. I don't know why but whenever i cry, it is easier for me to express my feeling... Most of the time, when i write about my feeling, i always cry... Tonight, i can't cry even if i feel like i need to. Something stops me from letting my tears fall.. I'm a kind of.. sad person. always always...