nothing...

I don't want to say it but sometimes i wish that you could be different from what you are now... But i have to say it.. Don't i love you for what you are ? I don't know. If i'm happy today, it's just because of myself. Just as i think, we create our own happiness just like we dig for our own sadness. Briefly, i mean.. someday i decide to be happy just like someday i decide not to be. I know it's so stupid, but it's true. It's late night now, i'm probably tired. I find myself every night thinking about the same thing. US. Where are we going being like this ? I don't know... Am i digging for sadness once again ?

Mookie X Jordan V

My little baby and a pair of red Jordan V .. uhhhhhh so cute!

Carine's Daily Style

Glasses : Chanel . Dress : F.O.F . Shoes : Repetto BB

Viinh. Cap : New Era . Tee : Bape from HK . Short : Vans . Sneakers : Bapesta 88
Carine. Tee : Camaiieu . Short : Kaporal . Sneakers : Nike dunk low olympic game

Carine. Tee : CTRL . Belt : Calvin Klein . Jeans : Melting Pot . Sneakers : Nike Dunk High SB
Viinh. Tee : Bape from HK . Jeans : Baby Milo . Sneakers : Nike Dunk High SB

Tee : Paul Frank . Jeans : Cheap Monday . Shoes : Bensimon

Holiday ?

I'm laying down on my bed, having my macbook on my knees and nostalgia came to knock at my door. On my bed since i came back from China, i don't move of an inch! I've been bored and enjoying/wasting? my holiday doing nothing. I like it. Sleep, watch series, eat.. that's all i do of my days. Perhaps... I go out! Being alone at home took me thinking... All those love movies that i watched, those series about teenagers.... I'm just one of those and sometimes my profile really fits in those movies/series. I see myself acting up there. Life is like a movie.. Life is a game. We all have to survive and save those that we love. That's the rules of Life. That's how i see thing.

Piece of shit as am i..? ( drunk...)

I might be doing a big mistake... what should i do ? please tell me, i'm lost.. i don't know what to do anymore.. am i being played just as i've always been ? ahhhh.... i feel so depressed right now and don't know what to do... The only person that i trusted became the one that i doubt... i feel this fear that came back from nowhere. I'm so lonely. I have no one in this world, it's just killing me... There's nothing that can help, i'm Lost as i just said. Nothing count for me not even him... i want to kill myself, for.. no reason, and he doesn't even know how bad i feel right now. I just found out how is the real "him". He's just selfish and doesn't love me as much as he said. It is just an image that he gives me of him. But while i'm drunk, i can see that it's not true, i can see how he's playing me, i can see how much he loves himself more than me. Just fuck you.. ahh.. how can i believe me.. i'm just drunk right now, maybe? It might be alright tomorrow, i might forget all that shit tomorrow ? ahhhh! Please god help me, am i in the wrong way ? am i ? please tell me, i just feel so bad.... i just don't know what to do. If he loved me as much as he said, he would have shown me to the world, he would have called me back, he would have stopped hiding me, he would have love me for what i am, he would have tell me that everything alright and that i have nothing to be scared of, he would have just hold me tight and never let me go... but he didn't, and he'll not cause i'm not the one, i'm not the one that'll take him away, that'll get him better... i'm just one of those thousand girls.. nothing much.. i'm just a piece of shit?

Talking for this little girl that is inside of me...

Laying down on a bed, holding your hand that i can't let go, i feel like so high... You are right now everything that i love, my inspiration and the reason i'm living for. That's such crazy things that might not be real, but that's my feeling and i have no other words to describe how good i feel with you right now. I can touch you, i can feel you and i don't want this moment to end. I hold you tight, your smell is so special, your body just fits me like a glove... You turned back and kissed me.. I can't feel myself anymore you are just so amazing. How can a feeling be that crazy ? I can't believe i finally found someone like you. You are the perfect one, the one i'll never let go. Whenever you touch me i'm going up there, i forget everything and there's only you & me. Am i in love ?

That's not me but the little girl inside of me that is so in love...

Crying like a child...

I just don't know what to say... i'm crying like a three years old child... for.. you.. no reason. I just miss you.. I feel so lonely and need someone to be with me listening me to cry.. but i just don't know who to call, what to tell that person... i just don't...